I lost

I won't keep you in suspense, and i won't even try and describe how I'm feeling. I didn't win. I now don't have a job, plan or place to live for the coming year. I haven't stopped crying for 4 and a half hours and i don't see this ending any time soon.

It's getting really fucking hard to stay enthusiastic when i haven't had a win in months. I don't want to be comforted. I don't want to be told how other cool shit will come along. I just want to wallow in how utterly shitty this whole thing is.

This sucks.